Oh I react! With sudden violent heat and quickened pulse. I'm not stupid enough to hide it from you this time either.

Therein lies the problem.
I would not hide it from YOU.

But you aren't there, right? You disappear whenever I turn over a stone.

So I cannot make the reaction too visible or specific.
I don't trust my instincts and this is not hide and seek where if you find anyone you win.

I'm not seeking just anyone, if I was I would have run off and paired up long ago.

I will not risk giving you the impression that I lust after someone else.
Pay attention to the connection, to the tantric live wire longing.

My reaction is there.
It is not just your own desires bouncing off the walls of the echo chamber.

That
Was
Me.

You are making the same mistake now that you made then.
Rejecting the apple you cannot see.